FEAR

Moving is a pain in the butt!  It's adventure and I love it and I hate it!  I think the hardest thing I would say is leaving my job to find another one.  Switching a teaching certificate is easy but takes a long time!!!!!  You move you apply for your certificate in a different state!  I had to wait almost two months meaning I couldnt apply for any teaching positions until I heard from the state. 

Getting on facebook to see teachers going back to school killed my heart!  Not preparing my room killed my heart!  I think SAISD still has me on their caller list and called me about a big meeting and I wanted to cry!  I actually think I did!  Seeing everyones kids all dressed up and ready for school made me cry!  Im a teacher not for a pay check!  Im a teacher to make a difference in someones life and I can't do it from my couch at home!!!

My first interview was at an alterative school....which I bascially didn't get because I really think that they feared that I wouldn't be able to protective myself lol!  I finally got my letter from the state and was able to interview for a six grade teaching position!  Then finding out that they decided to add a theatre teacher and that I should apply!  When I first started working on my certificate people would tell me I would never find a teaching job in theatre!  Wrong!!!  In San Antonio I taught k through 8 theatre!! Something most people would never heard of!  When looking at teaching here I knew that I would be teaching elementary ed because they do not have many position for full time theatre teacher!!!  So when I had my interview for the job I made sure I was prepared for whatever they may throw at me!  But when they took my hand and said welcome to Workman I seriously was wanting to scream and dance in my heart!!!  I walked to my car....got in and cried!   Not having a job sucks for one thing!! But not being able to teach was killing my heart!!!

I'm soo nervous for monday!!! Like really nervous!  In hopes that I will be everything that they think I would be.  Also, that my students love me... I'm soo nervous to start a new place!!!!  Like soo scared to get back in to the classroom in a new school!  I'm excited but fear is setting in!!! 

God is soo Amazing!!!  I don't think life could get any better!!  Wonderful family, amazing husband, I got on a cover a mag., I GOT A JOB IN THEATRE!!!! 

I'm writting this because I keep thinking of the classroom that I will walk into on Monday... I'm scared soo scared...please keep me in your prayers that I will do well!  That I will make a difference!