So this is just a random blog with just random thoughts and things going on in life.  First I'm sure people are wondering about my job.  The only thing I can say is the job wasn't safe and I had to quit having to ask a cop to come in my classroom was too much for me.  Also, coming home crying everyday wasn't working for me.  So I'm back to the drawing boards... so I'm just subbing until i can get a job plus it will get my name out there for a teaching position.  I've been going through this and its been soo hard!  I think I was just so excited then boom didn't work out just really sucked!  Plus the job market here is awful!!!!  Thank goodness for my supportative husband who keeps encouraging me when I get down.

Pensacola still hasn't grown on me yet but doesn't feel as weird.  I still miss Texas so much and my family.  But When I do go home it will mean even more!

I recently found a friend that I knew growing up.  She was like my best friend as a little girl.. Crazy how facebook can reconnect people.  It's also funny when you run back into old friends how much you see how much you have changed and grown! 

Sooo I've been watching glee... I'm really missing theatre these days...teaching it and doing it is a way different world.  I miss the people... I miss working with other artist!!! Ugh just so hard to put in words... But going to find a way to get back into it... Some people don't know but I also sing....ts a huge passion of mine.. thought of recording it then posting it see what people think...but I will see.....


OOOOOhh Zumba... so I was really scared to do zumba... Dancing infront of walls of mirrors and with military men in the background yeal sorry scary!!!  But I decided what the heck just do it!  So zumba was fun!  At the same time I felt sooo uncomfortable!!!  It made me realize how much I am not comfortable in my new body.... I think zumba will be good for me just for that sake ...just to help me with getting comfortable in my shell.  I think being so big for so long I guess thats why I'm not use to it.  But it was a lot of fun!  Also, the women were not judging me they were going through the same boat.  The funny thing is the whole time I was thinking that my husband would be soo fun to do this with... ha and I got Ryan to agree to do it with me!  What a great husband lol

So this is just a short random blog!  The end!

 

Grey's always talks about that one person you run to when the world falls apart... My husband is that person... He has loved me when I weighed 261 pounds .. from loving me when I have bad days... He's always there to cheer me on.. Tonight I started thinking of how  lucky I was for God to give me such an amazing person in my life.  I don't know if Ryan knows how special he truly is.   I wanted to write a blog to tell you how amazing my husband is and to Thank him for always being there for me... but most of all inspiring everyday to be a great person.....

My husband has a huge heart of gold!  With that heart he has such strength...He is a Navy Sailor who has deployed to Iraq for about  a year.  While being in the Navy in San Antonio he helped with Habitat for Humanity.

There is one thing that many people don't know about my husband but a couple of years ago my husband gave bone marrow to a complete stranger who had cancer.  Giving bone marrow is not a easy or pain free thing.

How do you prepare for bone marrow stem cell donation?

Before you can donate your bone marrow, doctors give you injections of a medication to draw the blood stem cells out from your bone marrow and into your bloodstream. That way they can be easily filtered from your blood.

The medication, filgrastim (Neupogen), is typically given as an injection once a day for four or five days before your bone marrow stem cell donation. Doctors will monitor your blood counts to see how your body is reacting to the filgrastim. They'll also be looking to see if you have an optimal number of stem cells circulating in your blood.

How is bone marrow stem cell donation done?

During bone marrow stem cell donation, a machine collects your blood stem cells through a process called apheresis. Blood is drawn from your arm and runs through a machine that filters out the blood stem cells. Then your blood is returned to your body through your opposite arm.

Apheresis takes four to six hours. You'll typically undergo two to four apheresis sessions, depending on how many blood stem cells are needed.

Wanna know what comes with this!!!!

•Bone pain

•Headache

•Muscle pain

•Fatigue

•Insomnia

•Nausea and flu-like symptoms

•Sweating

•Loss of appetite

•Tingling

 

You basically feel like complete SHIT!!!  I was there with him for a week in Baltimore.. Ryan took it like  a champ but you could see that it was soo painful.   Ryan got nothing for doing this... he did it to help a complete stranger....  Ryan's dad died when he was very young to cancer so I think in my heart his dad was on his mind when he decided to this... Till this day I can remember that week.. I don't know if Ryan knows what a wonderful thing he did for someone.... I don't even know if Ryan knows what a wonderful beautiful person he is.......

We all are proud of our family and our other half!  Ryans one of those people who doesn't like to be thanked or given awards to... But I just wanted to share what my husband did and to encourage others to good things in the world for people in need... My husband if you are reading this.... I love you... you are everything to me... you have changed my life and you inspire me to be a better person every day! I love you!